The Conception Diaries

Completing our family

Pregnancy: 8+6

Pregnancy is plodding along.  I have days where I’m very positive and talk about baby, and maternity clothes, and having a bump etc but then I have days where I can’t look beyond the end of today. 

I woke this morning and decided my boobs didn’t hurt and had a mini panic, which is stupid as they’re now hurting again but, as much as I think I’m doing ok, the tiniest things just seem to throw me.

I can’t wait to get my first midwife appointment out of the way and get my scan booked.  The midwife appointment is next week and I’m hoping the scan date comes through fairly soon after that.  I’ll be 12 weeks in the last week in March so it would be nice to get a scan in that week.

Tomorrow I’ll be 3/4 of the way to that magic 12 week mark.  I just hope the next few weeks hurry up!

In other news, baby is no longer an embryo but is now a foetus (or fetus for my readers in the US) and is now the size of a raspberry.  My stomach seems to have got a little rounder, despite me losing a few pounds, but I’m still comfortable in my regular clothes.  On my positive days I’ve even been browsing maternity clothes online but I’ll wait until my scan before buying any.

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Cycle 6 CD37 11dpo

I got a bfp last night.

I bought a twin pack of First Response tests from the supermarket but realised when I got home that they weren’t the early response ones, but the one step ones that aren’t as sensitive and only say to use from the day your period is due.

Me being me, I didn’t let this put me off as I decided if it was a bfn I’d got another one anyway, so waited until I put Miss C to bed then tested.

The 2nd line came up within seconds.  It’s fairly faint but easily visible.  For a non-early test to show up like that at 10dpo, with evening wee, I’m taking it as a good sign.

Without wanting to jinx myself, I’m feeling a bit more positive about this pregnancy than the previous ones. When I tested with Miss C, I just felt pregnant.  I would have been more shocked if the line hadn’t come up on the test than I was when it did.  Well I felt the same last night.  With the bfp’s in August and December I didn’t really feel pregnant, and even on the early tests I only got super faint lines at 11dpo with those pregnancies.

This has to be it, this has to be my 3rd time lucky rainbow baby.

Oh, and I haven’t told my husband yet.  Despite feeling ok (I’m still scared but feeling more positive) I just need a few days.  Honestly, I’m scared of hurting him again.  With my miscarriages I felt like a failure.  Why couldn’t I carry my baby?  What was wrong with me?  Am I broken?  I’m sure he didn’t think that and he was nothing but supportive but I’m so scared of it happening again.  I will tell him by the weekend but for now it’s my secret.

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