The Conception Diaries

Completing our family

Cycle 6 CD37 11dpo

I got a bfp last night.

I bought a twin pack of First Response tests from the supermarket but realised when I got home that they weren’t the early response ones, but the one step ones that aren’t as sensitive and only say to use from the day your period is due.

Me being me, I didn’t let this put me off as I decided if it was a bfn I’d got another one anyway, so waited until I put Miss C to bed then tested.

The 2nd line came up within seconds.  It’s fairly faint but easily visible.  For a non-early test to show up like that at 10dpo, with evening wee, I’m taking it as a good sign.

Without wanting to jinx myself, I’m feeling a bit more positive about this pregnancy than the previous ones. When I tested with Miss C, I just felt pregnant.  I would have been more shocked if the line hadn’t come up on the test than I was when it did.  Well I felt the same last night.  With the bfp’s in August and December I didn’t really feel pregnant, and even on the early tests I only got super faint lines at 11dpo with those pregnancies.

This has to be it, this has to be my 3rd time lucky rainbow baby.

Oh, and I haven’t told my husband yet.  Despite feeling ok (I’m still scared but feeling more positive) I just need a few days.  Honestly, I’m scared of hurting him again.  With my miscarriages I felt like a failure.  Why couldn’t I carry my baby?  What was wrong with me?  Am I broken?  I’m sure he didn’t think that and he was nothing but supportive but I’m so scared of it happening again.  I will tell him by the weekend but for now it’s my secret.

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Cycle 6 CD36 10dpo

10dpo today and beginning to feel the urge to test. 

I don’t really have any symptoms, a few twinges but that could be anything, but then would I really have symptoms yet?  Probably not.

I have to go into the supermarket in my lunch hour today so considering buying a test while I’m there, just in case.  Despite everything I say about not testing early I seem to just need to know.  Those of you out there who can wait until you’re late are just amazing!

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Cycle 5 CD30 8dpo

I tested this morning.  Oops.  It was negative, obviously.  I didn’t even use a decent test, just a cheap internet dipstrip I got free with some opk’s!

I am completely rubbish.  I should know better than to test early after the chemical pregnancy in August but I’m obviously an idiot.

I have ordered some First Response tests today though and if they’re here for Friday I’ve decided to use one before my doctors appointment.

As far as symptom spotting goes, there’s not a lot to report.  I’ve had a few twinges yesterday and today but that’s about it.  And for all I know it could be wind.

Not long to go now.

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