The Conception Diaries

Completing our family

Pregnancy: 5 weeks

5 weeks is when it was all over last time.  5 weeks is the day I’ve been dreading since I got my first positive.  But so far, all is well.  And now I’m finally on my own laptop, I thought I’d share my hpt photos with you 🙂

My first, done at 10dpo in the evening.  This is a First Response one step, not the early detection one as I managed to buy the wrong kind.  Still, not a bad line for 10dpo.

first response 10dpoI then managed to wait until 13dpo before trying the 2nd First Response test.  A nice dark line came up straight away.

First response 13dpoOf course, I couldn’t resist buying a twin pack of clearblue digitals when I went shopping last week and at 14dpo I got this.

CB digi 14dpo

 

I had a rubbish cheap test left in my drawer which I waited until 19dpo before I finally did.  The wait was worth it, beautiful lines!

Internet dip strip 19dpo

Finally, this morning, at 21dpo I felt brave enough to do my remaining digital test.  I’ve been dreading this day but I’m now feeling a bit happier about this pregnancy.

CB digi 21 dpo

 

There’s still a long way to go yet, I know that, but I feel as though it’s one milestone reached.  I’m also feeling nauseous when I’m hungry and my boobs are feeling quite painful at times so these symptoms are helping me to believe that this might actually be our rainbow baby.

We’re still in some weird limbo at home.  Me and my husband aren’t really mentioning the pregnancy much as I think we’re both scared of getting excited for something to go wrong again.  I have a pelvic ultrasound scheduled in two weeks time.  I’m going to keep the appointment and beg them to still scan me.  I’ll be 6+6 on scan day so, fingers crossed, we should see a heartbeat.

We still haven’t told a soul about this pregnancy.  We’re likely to see my parents this weekend and, if they ask, I won’t lie to them but ideally I’d like to have the scan first.  We’ll see how it goes.

 

 

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Cycle 6 CD39 13dpo

Or I suppose I could say 3+6 but that just sounds sooo early!

I did another hpt this morning and got a darker line which pleases me.

Also, and just humour me for a minute, I think I have symptoms.  Surely it’s too early though?  Or it’s my mind playing tricks on me?  Who knows, but my boobs feel odd, I’m tired, I felt nauseous before I ate yesterday and today, I’ve had a couple of dizzy spells, and did I mention I’m tired?!

I may be coming down with something and those ‘symptoms’ may not be pregnancy related at all but I’m kind of hoping they are.

Still haven’t told the husband.  Think I’m going to tomorrow as I’ll be officially late then.  I also bought a 2 pack of digital tests when I went shopping earlier as I just can’t help myself.  I’ll be doing one tomorrow and I know at 14dpo it could either say 1-2 weeks or 2-3 weeks but I’m crossing everything that it says 2-3 weeks.  I’d be surprised if it didn’t really after the good line I got at 10dpo.

I’ll update you in the morning.

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Cycle 6 CD37 11dpo

I got a bfp last night.

I bought a twin pack of First Response tests from the supermarket but realised when I got home that they weren’t the early response ones, but the one step ones that aren’t as sensitive and only say to use from the day your period is due.

Me being me, I didn’t let this put me off as I decided if it was a bfn I’d got another one anyway, so waited until I put Miss C to bed then tested.

The 2nd line came up within seconds.  It’s fairly faint but easily visible.  For a non-early test to show up like that at 10dpo, with evening wee, I’m taking it as a good sign.

Without wanting to jinx myself, I’m feeling a bit more positive about this pregnancy than the previous ones. When I tested with Miss C, I just felt pregnant.  I would have been more shocked if the line hadn’t come up on the test than I was when it did.  Well I felt the same last night.  With the bfp’s in August and December I didn’t really feel pregnant, and even on the early tests I only got super faint lines at 11dpo with those pregnancies.

This has to be it, this has to be my 3rd time lucky rainbow baby.

Oh, and I haven’t told my husband yet.  Despite feeling ok (I’m still scared but feeling more positive) I just need a few days.  Honestly, I’m scared of hurting him again.  With my miscarriages I felt like a failure.  Why couldn’t I carry my baby?  What was wrong with me?  Am I broken?  I’m sure he didn’t think that and he was nothing but supportive but I’m so scared of it happening again.  I will tell him by the weekend but for now it’s my secret.

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Cycle 5 CD36 14dpo (4 weeks pregnant!)

I did 2 tests this morning.  Look.

2012-12-17 06.59.43I’m still a little nervous.  AF was due either yesterday or today but my temp is still nice and high so I’m feeling a little happier now.

I’m planning on telling my parents this week.  They came round for a drink last night with a bottle of wine.  Luckily it was rose wine so my fab hubby went and poured it in the kitchen and came back in with a glass of mixed berries juice which just happens to be the exact same colour as the wine.

I hate lying to them but just wanted to get past af due date first.

Symptoms are twinges and backache so far.  Eek!

 

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Cycle 5 CD33 11dpo

I did another test this morning.  There’s another line.  It’s still very faint but visible this time.

What do you think?

first response faint line 11dpoThe pictures still not great but I think you can at least see this one!

I’m now worried I’m going to have a chemical pregnancy again.  I know I shouldn’t test so early but I can’t help myself.  Those ladies who manage to wait until their period is late have some mighty willpower!

Hopefully I’ll get a clearer line tomorrow

 

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Cycle 3 CD39 11dpo

Being a pregnancy test addict, I went and tested again today.  I didn’t expect much but after 10 minutes I could see a very faint line.  I tried again using one of the clearblue plus tests from the clearblue trial and a line was there, but very faint, within 3 or 4 minutes.

clearblue plus

I’m not sure what to think now.  With my daughter I had a definite bfp and that was that, I never had super faint lines.

Obviously the only thing I can do is wait until tomorrow and test again.  If I get more faint lines I think I’ll fork out for a clearblue digital for Saturday morning

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